So I know I've made some mistakes in my life. I know I've screwed up royal-ly. And being the stoic that I am, I purposely buried these things in the recesses of my subconscious too long ago for me to remember.
But I realized today that some things just won't stay submerged.
These past two days have been like a huge bandage that has stuck on my brain forever is slowly being peeled off, against my will. I have yet to decide how the repercussions of the aftershock will mess up my equilibrium, so I'll just have to wait and see. However, in the mean time, I feel ashamed that my concrete bubble is shattering before my eyes. And after building it up all these years and living in it, my mouth chose today to use its powerful sound waves to crack the system. Being faced with this dilemma is one of the most terrifying thing I have ever expierenced in my entire life. And it was all because of one sentance. One sentance that will forever stay in her mind.
This is exactly why you should never tell anybody anything. The philosophy of Stoicism will be the future to a perfect world, starting off with the perfect human being.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Rant (part I)...prepare to be grr-ifyed.
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maybe you're right about stoicism. bandages have to come off sometime. maybe you took it off at the right time, or maybe it was too early because the wound hasn't healed yet. maybe that one sentence you told her will change her life in some way. there are so many possibilities.
Is stoicism truly the way to a perfect human? If we were to never tell anyone anything, for fear or some other reason, how would we live? Being human is communication. You may regret what you said, but you shouldn't--speaking up and out is one of the biggest steps you can take to becoming an well-rounded, generally awesome person (digression: you will also awe people everywhere with your diction).
Or maybe I am off topic and not seeing what you mean me to. If that is so, please excuse my rambling.
Holding stuff in leads to more problems.
You probably don't think I understand, but I've been there. And, from my own experience, you're very wrong.
And I'm pretty sure you're referring to what i'm thinking of. And yes it will stay in her mind. But that's because it brought out some of her own unresolved feelings.
thank you for your comment as well. we need people like you who express their feelings through the power of words
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